Today you've caught my attention, and I think it's only right to have a conversation. Through the years you have grown to know me very well; you know my ups and downs, my tendencies, and the moments of my life that have caused me great distress. Even though you are more than welcome to be apart of my life, I must address the fact that sometimes you cause me more harm than protection. I've noticed that you easily trigger alarms of danger, when in fact... there is no danger at all. Along with false alarms, you have also planted a home (quite cozily I might add) in my mind. And even though this home of yours likes to stay alert and bright at all hours, there is a need for rest.
Fear, I understand that the world can be a scary place... key word "can"... but it's not always that way. The world has beautiful sights to see, scents to smell, and lessons to learn. But with your false alarms constantly going off, I have not been able to rest and enjoy those moments in the world. Recently, you have been anticipating danger all around you. You are afraid that my car will break down at any moment. You are afraid that I will disappoint my friends and family. You are afraid that I might fail all of my classes in school. And you are afraid that one day I might be alone and without a support system. All of these worries have taken a toll on my heart and on my mind. I am so tired and need rest, to find moments of joy and comfort. Even though you may believe that you are protecting me from danger by setting off all these alarms, you are in fact hurting me. My mind, body, and soul have grown weak. I have lost my ability to cherish the quite moments, the moments of peace. And I am telling you now, these false alarms must stop.
I'm going to tell you something that may hurt your feelings, but tough love must be had in this conversation. So here it goes...Fear, you are not always right. There! I said it! You are not always right and that is OKAY. You may think you know best, but that is not completely accurate. It is okay to be afraid, to worry, and to anticipate danger; BUT experiencing those emotions should not take away from me having a good day. Believe it or not, it is possible to have a good day even when you're afraid. It might be hard, it might feel unbearable at times, but you know what? "Every day is a beautiful day to do hard things," that is what the beautiful Kimberley Quinlan has taught me. In her most recent podcast labeled "How to do HARD THINGS!," she also wrote a letter to fear; and that is why I'm writing a letter to you today, because I was inspired.
You see fear, I'm not telling you all of these things to try and bring you down or discredit the role you play in my life; you are very important to me, but there is one thing you must understand... the "even if" statement. Here! I'll show you! EVEN IF my car breaks down, I have money set aside to repair it. EVEN IF I disappoint my friends and family, I know that they are loving and forgiving people, and that we will be able to grow in our relationship. EVEN IF I fail one, or two, or all of my college classes, there is always more opportunities down the road to do better. And, EVEN IF one day I might be alone and without a support system, guess what? I won't be. I am never alone because God is always walking with me, readily available to help me when I face trails and times of need.
So, Fear, how do you feel now? Do you feel a little less on edge? Because I sure do. Moving forward, let's walk together and embrace what this big beautiful world has to offer. To remember that even if (and when) you get scared, I encourage you to hold off on the alarms for a bit, and instead just take a deep breath and get your game face on. Cause Today, and Everyday, is "a beautiful day to do hard things."
With Love, Aubrey Layne.
Fear holds an important role in your life, but it is not always accurate with its alarms. Stop. Breathe. And give it to God.
God is big enough to handle all of life's scary moments.
Hard days can be beautiful days too.
"For just as the sufferings of Christ overflow to us, so also through Christ our comfort overflows."