"Your small and steady acts of faithfulness are being used in big and beautiful ways in the kingdom of God."
I came across this quote while I was scrolling through Pinterest this morning and it jumped out at me so quick, I knew what I wanted/needed to write about. Leading your life in faithfulness and love. So many times I have caught myself going about my days in a transfixed daze; just going through the motions. But within this past week, while I was driving to school, I put Hillsong United's "Wonder" album on shuffle...then the song "Glimmer in the dust" started to play. And two sets of lyrics stood out.
1. "While I wait, I will not be afraid. My faith will remain all the same."
This spoke to my ever restless heart. It's so hard to find peace when God calls us into a season of waiting, especially when the waiting entails a lot of unknowns. But what I've began to realize in my season of waiting is that our Abba Father just wants us to have an unwavering faith, in times where all he asks from us in return is to trust Him. And the prayer that I've challenged myself to pray over the past few weeks, I can already see a big change in my heart. I am learning to let go of what I want, and pursue what He wants. And man can I tell you that His peace has rushed over me. You see, I am very much a perfectionist and like to get things right the first time... but that's just not a practical way of living now is it? But I've learned to give my heart and life to Him, trusting to be led where I need to go. Cause ultimately He knows best, not me.
2. "When all's said and done, all that matters is love. So let love take over."
I have been singing these lyrics all over my apartment. Why? Because over the span of my life I have been known to love others effortlessly, and love hard. I've been asked "Aubrey, how do you love someone already with only knowing them for 10 minutes??" or "How do you trust others so quickly?"... These are questions I didn't really know the answer to until I heard these lyrics. Christ calls us to love one another, and love them with a boldness. During this season of waiting, I've also been learning about the spiritual gifts God has provided me with. And one of those gifts is to give love and kindness away like it's free cash. And who can turn down a free wad of cash? But here's the catch... love is everlasting, ever present... worldly things are not. I want to be remembered and known for the love that I gave, not how much money I made or the career I pursued. I want to be that person that gives a simple compliment, just in hopes of making your day better. I strive to love others in the way I am called to by God. "So let love take over."
With these lyrics in mind, I know I will have moments where I fall short. I'll have day's when my anxiety/fear seems too much to bear, and day's when I don't love others as well as I should. But God knows I'm not perfect, and doesn't expect me to be. So when those day's arise, I need to be reminded of God's grace and sovereignty. That He is working in me and through me everyday. Also giving grace to myself.
God has provided each and every individual with a different set of spiritual gifts; He is using you everyday.
Giving your love and trust to God, is where the greater rewards is found.
Patience isn't easy, but Gods promises will reign true.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."